Excitement vs. Anvxiety

Only TEN more weeks left until Gavin is expected to be here.

I couldn't be anymore excited for his arrival. I cannot wait to meet the little boy that has been residing in my belly for the past 30 weeks.

But at the very same time.... I feel a lot of anxiety about his arrival as well.

Am I ready? Is David ready?

I'd love to feel confident enough to say yes, 

but in all reality, 

NO ONE is ever REALLY ready.

Life as we know it is about to be flipped upside down in 10 short weeks and quite frankly, I've never been more nervous about something in my entire life.

This isn't something that I can push to the side either.

We're talking about bringing a new person into this world and it's David and I's job to care for this person and raise him. 

That is HUGE.

Not that I doubt the fact that we can do it, because I have all the confidence in the world that we can handle it.

It's just the thought that this is really happening. 

And happening really fast.

When you think about the time span of 9 months you generally feel like that's a pretty good amount of time. 

Not when you are pregnant.

At least, not for me.

I feel like someone is holding the fast forward button down, on my life!

The weeks are flying by so fast I feel like my head is going to spin right off my shoulders!

I just want to be ready.

As ready as I can possibly be.

I'm so excited to meet my little guy and I just want everything to be as perfect as I can make it.

I think I just need to relax--easier said than done.

That's enough venting and rambling for tonight though.

Time to relax and get some sleep... or try to at least :]

Choas.

I've been feeling a bit overwhelmed lately.

Balancing work, school &  preparations for little Gavin has consumed all of my time.

I continue to make my main focus on my tiny little guy and yet again I'm finding myself putting school on the back burner of my priorities list.

PROCRASTINATION= My best friend.

Not after this week.

I've managed to put myself in a hole, once again. It's test day, in both classes, and I'm NO WHERE near prepared. I've been trying to cram the past two nights and it's not getting me anywhere. I'm so frustrated with my lack of better judgement that while I'm reading, I'm not actually absorbing anything. So, I'll just have to put on my big girl pants and take the grades that I deserve--This time.

But I'm not letting it happen again. This won't be another embarrassing semester.

On the brighter side of things, Gavin's quilt that my grandma and I made is FINALLY finished!

I can't wait to pick it up from her this afternoon. Where's the fast forward button when you need it? I'm so excited to see it completed that I can hardly stand it!

Another bit of great news for today: I'm 26 weeks!

Woooo! Where has the time gone?! I feel like this pregnancy has been on high-speed so far. Every new weeks that passes, amazes me. My baby shower is coming up very soon too. I can hardly contain my excitement for that as well. Being able to set up his room is what I'm looking forward to the most. Well, aside from him actually being here, that is :]

Enough chit-chat for today though.

I have to get ready to go to school =/

Maybe I'll get lucky and do okay with guessing--both tests are multiple choice.

Haha IN MY DREAMS!

Byee! :]

Getting started..

Still trying to figure this thing out..

I'm sure I'll get the hang of it quickly.